Homesick

It is a strange feeling to be at home and feel homesick at the same time. At first I did not recognize it as homesickness and labeled it as grief, as sadness, maybe a climate depression, rage over the rapid demolition of our natural world. Then I realized I’m grieving deeply over the loss of…

gardener/ guardian

Every time I try to take a picture of my garden, my telephone dies. When we bought this house with its big, beautiful garden my hands were itching to plant herbs, fruit trees, rearrange, be a gardener. But somehow that attitude wasn’t appreciated. I did not know where to began, all the plants grew like…

Bye Mary

Wherever I am, the world comes after me. It offers me its busyness. It does not believe that I do not want it. Now I understand why the old poets of China went so far and high into the mountains, then crept into the pale mist.” — Mary Oliver  (1935-2019) Rest in peace dear Mary….

to work

After a very long and wonderful maternity leave I’m happy to announce I’m open for reading and healing sessions from January 15th on. Distant readings and healing 150 euros Personal ceremony at our home in Klimmen (Zuid-Limburg) 300 euros (medicinal herbs from our garden included) Both include a detailed insight in blockages, ancestor lines and…

the body

After giving birth I am as round as Mother Earth herself, none of my old clothes even nearly fit. Since I’m breastfeeding I’ll just have to eat healthy and wait it out. In the meantime it is quite interesting (and annoying…) how much food for thought this current chubbiness is providing me with. This body has…

to manifest

Little Mozes is two months now and he starts to open his gummy hands and carefully touch what is around him. His own face, my arms, his clothes. He carefully smiles and starts to make small sounds. He is opening up to the world slowly. And with him I am too  (hence this blogpost!). After…

waterbaby

Last Wednesday our son Mozes was born. Mozes (Moses in English, Mozes in Dutch, Moïse in French) means “drawn from the water” and so he is, being born in the warm water pool under the water sign of Pisces into an ocean of love. A little boy full of wisdom and faith, teaching us all…

wild horse

We all have a wild side in us, something we feel that needs to be tamed, to be tempered, to be ignored or modified or the world will think no good of it. Wild is impolite, impractical, impertinent. But wild is where we need to go when we want to feel alive after too much adapting…

off the wheel

Monday I was told I was good. I felt relieved. Thursday I was ignored. I felt invisible. Wednesday I was snapped at. I began to doubt myself. On Thursday I was rejected. Now I was afraid. On Saturday I was thanked for being me. My soul relaxed. On Sunday I was left alone till the…

no media

It has been over seven years since the first contours of my book started to emerge. And it took all this time to come to the realization that, yes, I am the person to tell this story. I don’t have to become more of an expert or more scared or more healed to tell about…

book

My first book will be released this week. A very personal and honest memoir about how my burn-out has radically changed me and my perspective on life itself. Or maybe just brought me home to who I was all along. With so many (young) people facing anxiety, crisis and burn-out now days, this is a…

the question

I wrote about it before, but the question seems to raise more and more often. People ask me: how can I live a connected life while living in the midst of the modern world? How can I feel as grounded and safe and silent in the city as I can in the woods? It is…