delivering parcels

We keep a candle lit on our kitchen table every morning. It’s burning for the two children who didn’t come into our physical family, to tell their souls they’re a part of us and not forgotten. And to remember ourselves that we are part of a lot more than we can see. And a lot…

letters to my husband and his lover

A couple of years ago, when we still lived in France and my husband was in Holland for long stretches of time, he fell in love with someone else and had an affair. I felt devastated and deeply ashamed. I blamed him for ruining our perfect marriage, because –of course- this was entirely his fault….

moeder aarde apotheek

And the time has come to open up my Moeder Aarde Apotheek (Mother Earth Apothecary) online. So many of us are in need of help on all levels to work through these challenging times I will offer a limited selection of medicine here for anyone who needs it. All medicines are made in our healing…

soul medicine

So these are the times? In my new book I write about wolf medicine: changing the us-them mentality into unity. People who know me know I make non-commercial soul medicine out of plant remedies for people who seek healing. This week I make a corona soul medicine for anyone who feels they need it. It…

homesick

It is a strange feeling to be at home and feel homesick at the same time. At first I did not recognize it as homesickness and labeled it as grief, as sadness, maybe a climate depression, rage over the rapid demolition of our natural world. Then I realized I’m grieving deeply over the loss of…

gardener/ guardian

Every time I try to take a picture of my garden, my telephone dies. When we bought this house with its big, beautiful garden my hands were itching to plant herbs, fruit trees, rearrange, be a gardener. But somehow that attitude wasn’t appreciated. I did not know where to began, all the plants grew like…

bye mary

Wherever I am, the world comes after me. It offers me its busyness. It does not believe that I do not want it. Now I understand why the old poets of China went so far and high into the mountains, then crept into the pale mist.” — Mary Oliver  (1935-2019) Rest in peace dear Mary….

to work

After a very long and wonderful maternity leave I’m happy to announce I’m open for reading and healing sessions from January 15th on. Distant readings and healing 150 euros Personal ceremony at our home in Klimmen (Zuid-Limburg) 300 euros (medicinal herbs from our garden included) Both include a detailed insight in blockages, ancestor lines and…

the body

After giving birth I am as round as Mother Earth herself, none of my old clothes even nearly fit. Since I’m breastfeeding I’ll just have to eat healthy and wait it out. In the meantime it is quite interesting (and annoying…) how much food for thought this current chubbiness is providing me with. This body has…

to manifest

Little Mozes is two months now and he starts to open his gummy hands and carefully touch what is around him. His own face, my arms, his clothes. He carefully smiles and starts to make small sounds. He is opening up to the world slowly. And with him I am too  (hence this blogpost!). After…

waterbaby

Last Wednesday our son Mozes was born. Mozes (Moses in English, Mozes in Dutch, Moïse in French) means “drawn from the water” and so he is, being born in the warm water pool under the water sign of Pisces into an ocean of love. A little boy full of wisdom and faith, teaching us all…

wild horse

We all have a wild side in us, something we feel that needs to be tamed, to be tempered, to be ignored or modified or the world will think no good of it. Wild is impolite, impractical, impertinent. But wild is where we need to go when we want to feel alive after too much adapting…