waterbaby

Last Wednesday our son Mozes was born. Mozes (Moses in English, Mozes in Dutch, Moïse in French) means “drawn from the water” and so he is, being born in the warm water pool under the water sign of Pisces into an ocean of love. A little boy full of wisdom and faith, teaching us all…

wild horse

We all have a wild side in us, something we feel that needs to be tamed, to be tempered, to be ignored or modified or the world will think no good of it. Wild is impolite, impractical, impertinent. But wild is where we need to go when we want to feel alive after too much adapting…

off the wheel

Monday I was told I was good. I felt relieved. Thursday I was ignored. I felt invisible. Wednesday I was snapped at. I began to doubt myself. On Thursday I was rejected. Now I was afraid. On Saturday I was thanked for being me. My soul relaxed. On Sunday I was left alone till the…

no media

It has been over seven years since the first contours of my book started to emerge. And it took all this time to come to the realization that, yes, I am the person to tell this story. I don’t have to become more of an expert or more scared or more healed to tell about…

book

My first book will be released this week. A very personal and honest memoir about how my burn-out has radically changed me and my perspective on life itself. Or maybe just brought me home to who I was all along. With so many (young) people facing anxiety, crisis and burn-out now days, this is a…

the question

I wrote about it before, but the question seems to raise more and more often. People ask me: how can I live a connected life while living in the midst of the modern world? How can I feel as grounded and safe and silent in the city as I can in the woods? It is…

tadaima

Last week my dear friend and photographer Annemarieke van Drimmelen had her very personal, breath taking photography show tadaima in her home in Brooklyn. Dorothea Barth-Jorgensen came all the way from LA to our tiny village in the south of Holland to edit this beautiful film she shot of Annemarieke. So with a new friend I edited…

the center will not hold

“To remember what it is to be me, that is always the point.” These our the last words in the documentary (now on Netflix) on one of my literary icons Joan Didion. The center will not hold Didion mostly writes about herself, or directs bigger, universal stories back to herself. But it never seems to really be…

back!

Whoohoo, it’s been a while, even a long time. But I’m back! These last months have been a happy but rocky road. Life has changed radically and writing dropped from top to bottom of the list for a while. Not because I fell out of love with writing, it’s still one of my favorite thing…

rabbit

I planned to write a post about a work achievements this week, feeling watched by a society that asks : what have you got to show for yourself? So I sat down but came to the conclusion, it’s interesting for me, but how would my self promotion serve anybody else? So instead I’ll show you…

nettles

Live simply so others can simply live. – Mahatma Gandhi He got it right! And living simple can be oh so … simple! One of my favorite foods this time of year are nettles! I make tea, quiches, juices, this wonderful pesto (we did it without the parmesan and walnuts) and prescribe it in different ways…

taking from the Earth Mother

My anger about he fast pace in which we are tearing our natural world apart is transforming into concern and a more urgent notion that we have to change our lives more radical and faster. In only two months we’ll move to a farm in the south of Holland that will give us more possibilities…