selfish

We spent the weekend in Paris. People sleeping on the sidewalk in the rain. Children begging around the car. Slightly older children dealing drugs in the metro station. We eat in nice restaurants and sleep in a fancy hotel. While thousands and thousands are making their way out of war to Europe. It is all happening at the…

goodbye to all that

Is the famous essay Joan Didion wrote when she traded NY for LA. I thought I would never leave the mountain, but after not even two years life is pulling me away. We are nomads, there will always be the feeling there is something else to explore. We will be spending a part of the year in France, but…

happinez

I wrote an article about my first year in France for Happinez magazine. In store now in The Netherlands.

on writing

I changed my ambition at 17. From writing at an early age and wanting to become a writer I went to wanting to become a painter. I changed my ambition at 20. From being a selling painter I went to wanting to become a journalist. I changed my ambition at 22. From being a journalist I went to wanting…

mala

I got this beautiful Mala as a gift from my dear friend Sofia just when I said goodbye to go to Amsterdam.  I never owned a mala before, but owning one makes you realize how interwoven it is with humanity. In so many different cultures and religions it is linked to the divine. It is not…

love for nin

Shame is the lie someone told you about yourself. We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are. It is the function of art to renew our perception. What we are familiar with we cease to see. The writer shakes up the familiar scene, and, as if by magic, we see…

Truth

‘I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth – and truth rewarded me.’ Simone de Beauvoir said. Your own truth she meant. Not the truth of others. And what is harder than knowing your own truth? Pursuing your own truth. Everyone will say you are wrong and want to make you see…

terra sacra

Our neighbours in France are shamans. I did not have any experience with shamanism other than knowing it has something to do with ancient tribes and medicine men. When I met Peter & Alice I got curious and they invited all four of us to a fire ceremony. It was a magical experience sitting on their…

woman

I have learned so many things about being a woman, but most of them appear to be futile in real life. All the cliché’s were there: being pretty, thin, somewhat obedient, shy, funny, smart, well dressed, talented. Never too much. Not too much emotion, not too much ambition, not too much, not too much attention,…

ingrid bergman

I saw Casablanca again during Robert McKee’s wonderful seminar last weekend. And of course I fell head over heels for Ingrid Bergman. She just kills me every time. A sense of truth is sparkling from her whole being, telling us she knows life. “I was the shyest human ever invented, but I had a lion inside me that…

time

Last year I started research for a documentary about time. Or better about the lack of time. One thing I noticed when we moved to France is how I always felt I had ‘not enough time’. When I read about it, I found figures that state over 60% of working people feel they ‘do not have enough…

Hoʻoponopono

This is an ancient Hawaiian prayer: I love you. I am sorry. I forgive you. Thank you. Hoʻoponopono is a practice of forgiveness. When something happens between you and another person you can feel hurt, guilty or ashamed. When you repeat these words you accept total responsibility for what happened in your life AND for the other person. As the…