home
Home. Breath out. Home. I turned the car on the village square yesterday night in the pouring rain. Everybody in the car was sleeping. It rained too hard to get out of the car. A summer storm. The windscreen wipers doing overtime in front of me. And I just sat there and looked at the…
happinez
I wrote an article about my first year in France for Happinez magazine. In store now in The Netherlands.
on writing
I changed my ambition at 17. From writing at an early age and wanting to become a writer I went to wanting to become a painter. I changed my ambition at 20. From being a selling painter I went to wanting to become a journalist. I changed my ambition at 22. From being a journalist I went to wanting…
mala
I got this beautiful Mala as a gift from my dear friend Sofia just when I said goodbye to go to Amsterdam. I never owned a mala before, but owning one makes you realize how interwoven it is with humanity. In so many different cultures and religions it is linked to the divine. It is not…
love for nin
Shame is the lie someone told you about yourself. We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are. It is the function of art to renew our perception. What we are familiar with we cease to see. The writer shakes up the familiar scene, and, as if by magic, we see…
Truth
‘I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth – and truth rewarded me.’ Simone de Beauvoir said. Your own truth she meant. Not the truth of others. And what is harder than knowing your own truth? Pursuing your own truth. Everyone will say you are wrong and want to make you see…
terra sacra
Our neighbours in France are shamans. I did not have any experience with shamanism other than knowing it has something to do with ancient tribes and medicine men. When I met Peter & Alice I got curious and they invited all four of us to a fire ceremony. It was a magical experience sitting on their…
on trusting yourself
In dutch we have the word zelfvertrouwen, which means ‘self confident’. But in this word ‘confident’ is the same word as ‘trust’. Literally it says self trust. It was only last winter that I learned about this zelfvertrouwen. I thought it means to stand up for yourself, to be confident enough to find your place in the world, start new…
to be privileged
How many times have I heard that I should watch my words, watch my thoughts, watch my believes, because I am so privileged. I am one big cliché: born in one of the richest, safest, happiest countries in the world to intelligent, healthy, well-off, loving parents that showed me culture, gave me and education and…
woman
I have learned so many things about being a woman, but most of them appear to be futile in real life. All the cliché’s were there: being pretty, thin, somewhat obedient, shy, funny, smart, well dressed, talented. Never too much. Not too much emotion, not too much ambition, not too much, not too much attention,…