on motherhood and guilt

Gala was Dalì’s muze for life and also the muse of other artist like Louis Aragon and André Breton. When I read about her I learn what an inspiring and free spirit she was and how much she influenced their work. I also learn that she had a daughter before she married Salvador Dalì and how much she…

dalì

Dalì museum in Figueres, Spain. Hardly empty in January.

female solidarity

I’ve told you before about my girl crushes. After years of complaining (yes, I used to love complaining – niets menselijks is ons vreemd) that I could not find any female role models (which I even made a documentary about) over the last two years I have fallen from one crush into another. Meeting and discovering…

georgia

I feel there is something unexplored about woman that only a woman can explore. ~Georgia O’Keeffe Two quotes that make so much sense about how I feel right now. My recent crush on Georgia O’Keeffe says a lot about what I want. The New Year has begun. Now it’s time to start living the new. Explore….

2015

Oh man, what a beautiful, crazy sad and crazy happy ride you were! Thank you! But above all I would like to thank ALL of you for sticking along with me during this journey. Let’s see what 2016 will bring!  

7 years today

Seven years ago I woke up in the middle of the night with a strange feeling. Two-and-a-half hours later T was holding a little baby boy, only 2,5 kilo’s. I remember seeing he’s tiny face and feeling a shock: he is someone! Not a little fluffy baby like other babies I’d seen. This was a…

holding back

Why are you still holding back? You learned how to think for yourself. Why are you not speaking for yourself? You think people will not understand? You think people need cryptic translations? You think other people do not know the transcended realms of their own hearts? How can we learn to speak about it if…

fear

“Are you afraid? How afraid? Three stars? Four stars?” The Belgian reporter walks around the street of Brussels asking people about their level of fear. Most people are afraid they say. Because of Paris. Because of other people who are afraid. Because of what could happen. I thought I wasn’t afraid, I wouldn’t let it…

travels

For two years I have been “stuck” in one place. Arriving on our mountain I felt such a sense of relief I just stopped moving. Even going down the valley to get food would be something I would postpone as much as I could. I loved living away from the world. I loved my time outside…

mocktail

“Self-deprecation is only for people who have self-respect”. Sometimes you hear yourself say something and you think, hmm, where did this come from. I said it to a guy who put on his swimming shorts at the beach, only to find out they had shrunk. A lot. His girlfriend started to laugh, he was not…

interview

A couple of weeks ago we filmed an interview for dutch npo docs with Chris Kijne. Looking back on All We Ever Wanted, the documentary I made five years ago, with these two super talented guys: Illustrator Daniel Roozendaal and tattoo artist Emiel Steenhuizen who were brave enough to tell their story on camera. Find out now if they…