After giving birth I am as round as Mother Earth herself, none of my old clothes even nearly fit. Since I’m breastfeeding I’ll just have to eat healthy and wait it out. In the meantime it is quite interesting (and annoying…) how much food for thought this current chubbiness is providing me with. This body has…
Category: sarah
waterbaby
Last Wednesday our son Mozes was born. Mozes (Moses in English, Mozes in Dutch, Moïse in French) means “drawn from the water” and so he is, being born in the warm water pool under the water sign of Pisces into an ocean of love. A little boy full of wisdom and faith, teaching us all…
wild horse
We all have a wild side in us, something we feel that needs to be tamed, to be tempered, to be ignored or modified or the world will think no good of it. Wild is impolite, impractical, impertinent. But wild is where we need to go when we want to feel alive after too much adapting…
the question
I wrote about it before, but the question seems to raise more and more often. People ask me: how can I live a connected life while living in the midst of the modern world? How can I feel as grounded and safe and silent in the city as I can in the woods? It is…
tadaima
Last week my dear friend and photographer Annemarieke van Drimmelen had her very personal, breath taking photography show tadaima in her home in Brooklyn. Dorothea Barth-Jorgensen came all the way from LA to our tiny village in the south of Holland to edit this beautiful film she shot of Annemarieke. So with a new friend I edited…
taking from the Earth Mother
My anger about he fast pace in which we are tearing our natural world apart is transforming into concern and a more urgent notion that we have to change our lives more radical and faster. In only two months we’ll move to a farm in the south of Holland that will give us more possibilities…
summer solstice
It’s midsummer today. The longest day of the year. For me these solstices are special days on which our earthly sky seems to open up to the universe fully. I collected floors with the children to celebrate the new life that the sun gives. I will stay up late and make flower crowns and see the…
i am angry
After a lot of different thoughts like : maybe things have to get worse before they get better one day they’ll get it so many people are waking up and longing for a different society the future will bring new answers if I change the world will follow And more wishful thinking that you know is…
returning home
To me this painting by Edward Hopper is home. During the silent years of my burnout, this was the postcard that hung next to my dinner table and made me long for something that felt like ‘home’. I did not know what home was, only that I was afraid and lost. Somewhere I lost my home, my soul-home,…
nonnevot
Yesterday I was in the southeast part of The Netherlands, where I spend my childhood. It is Carnaval there, or Vasteloavend, the crazy festive days before the Catholic time of fast begins. It had been years since I heard the music, saw the people dressed up in the streets, off to meet each other, the…
what cannot be seen
All the neuroses, burnouts, crisis (small and big) I have gone through since I was sixteen can be seen as adversity. But I learned to see them as rites de passages which have brought me here. I know our culture does not like us to put our weaknesses out in the open, but I believe we have to, because we…