I am sick. The classic kind of ‘lying in bed all day feeling lonely with a bucket next to you thinking how to make it to the shower today’. I don’t know if it’s just me, but the thing I hate most about being ill is that I start to blame myself for it. What did I…
autumn
Making a crumble out of the very last harvest, picked from our Amsterdam garden.
Quiet
It has been a little quiet here lately. Moving back and forth between Amsterdam and the mountains means moving through huge energy shifts. The silence and power of the mountain and the quick pace and turmoil of the city, I love them both, it makes life rich, but also hectic again I feel. On top…
mocktail
“Self-deprecation is only for people who have self-respect”. Sometimes you hear yourself say something and you think, hmm, where did this come from. I said it to a guy who put on his swimming shorts at the beach, only to find out they had shrunk. A lot. His girlfriend started to laugh, he was not…
interview
A couple of weeks ago we filmed an interview for dutch npo docs with Chris Kijne. Looking back on All We Ever Wanted, the documentary I made five years ago, with these two super talented guys: Illustrator Daniel Roozendaal and tattoo artist Emiel Steenhuizen who were brave enough to tell their story on camera. Find out now if they…
forgiveness
Forgiveness is understanding, that I may never know why we hurt each other, or which one of us needs to grow
selfish
We spent the weekend in Paris. People sleeping on the sidewalk in the rain. Children begging around the car. Slightly older children dealing drugs in the metro station. We eat in nice restaurants and sleep in a fancy hotel. While thousands and thousands are making their way out of war to Europe. It is all happening at the…
to not be someone
I remember when I was in high school and it became clear that ‘I had to be someone’. And I did not think long, I am very ambitious, so I made ‘someone’. But that someone never really worked. And since some time I let go of the someone. I don’t need someone I have to live up…