the party

Stress.. I have been invited to a party. My heartbeat is up. I feel excited and terrified at the same time. Who will be there? What should I wear? I don’t own fancy clothes any more after three years on an isolated mountain. Do I have to go? Do I want to go? Why do…

how to trust

Could it be that trust, real trust, has become as rare as the wild lion? The more we think we can control life, the more ‘the wild’ in our lives disappears. Not only what we call ‘wildlife’ but also the ‘wild’ side of our lives. We learn to trust in our bank account, in the roofs…

all the lives

“Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.”  ― Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close I feel my bones straining today. It is raining, again. After some sunny days in Amsterdam the rain is back as is the low grey sky. Everybody is tired and pale…

to be privileged

This is a very sensitive subject which I’ve addressed before: being privileged. In all of my work I have been judged to be an over-privileged, white, skinny, rich mom. And you know what? I am. And it’s true : I don’t know what it’s like to be poor, to be hungry or to drag my new…

surprise!

This friday January 29th I am giving a surprise premiere lecture at The School of Life Amsterdam. It is a try-out, so things are exciting, new, can go wrong (hope not!) and I would love your feedback. From 14.00 – 16.30 for only 10,- including drinks. Come join and meet me for a drink afterwards!…

Practice II

Your life is your practice. This. Here. Your spiritual practice does not occur someplace other than in your life right now, and your life is nowhere other than where you are. You are looking for answers, insight, and wisdom that you already possess. Live the life in front of you, stay authentic to who you are…

travels

For two years I have been “stuck” in one place. Arriving on our mountain I felt such a sense of relief I just stopped moving. Even going down the valley to get food would be something I would postpone as much as I could. I loved living away from the world. I loved my time outside…

interview

A couple of weeks ago we filmed an interview for dutch npo docs with Chris Kijne. Looking back on All We Ever Wanted, the documentary I made five years ago, with these two super talented guys: Illustrator Daniel Roozendaal and tattoo artist Emiel Steenhuizen who were brave enough to tell their story on camera. Find out now if they…