A couple of years ago, when we still lived in France and my husband was in Holland for long stretches of time, he fell in love with someone else and had an affair. I felt devastated and deeply ashamed. I blamed him for ruining our perfect marriage, because –of course- this was entirely his fault….

And the time has come to open up my Moeder Aarde Apotheek (Mother Earth Apothecary) online. So many of us are in need of help on all levels to work through these challenging times I will offer a limited selection of medicine here for anyone who needs it. All medicines are made in our healing…

So these are the times? In my new book I write about wolf medicine: changing the us-them mentality into unity. People who know me know I make non-commercial soul medicine out of plant remedies for people who seek healing. This week I make a corona soul medicine for anyone who feels they need it. It…

It is a strange feeling to be at home and feel homesick at the same time. At first I did not recognize it as homesickness and labeled it as grief, as sadness, maybe a climate depression, rage over the rapid demolition of our natural world. Then I realized I’m grieving deeply over the loss of…

Every time I try to take a picture of my garden, my telephone dies. When we bought this house with its big, beautiful garden my hands were itching to plant herbs, fruit trees, rearrange, be a gardener. But somehow that attitude wasn’t appreciated. I did not know where to began, all the plants grew like…

Wherever I am, the world comes after me. It offers me its busyness. It does not believe that I do not want it. Now I understand why the old poets of China went so far and high into the mountains, then crept into the pale mist.” — Mary Oliver  (1935-2019) Rest in peace dear Mary….

After a very long and wonderful maternity leave I’m happy to announce I’m open for reading and healing sessions from January 15th on. Distant readings and healing 150 euros Personal ceremony at our home in Klimmen (Zuid-Limburg) 300 euros (medicinal herbs from our garden included) Both include a detailed insight in blockages, ancestor lines and…

Little Mozes is two months now and he starts to open his gummy hands and carefully touch what is around him. His own face, my arms, his clothes. He carefully smiles and starts to make small sounds. He is opening up to the world slowly. And with him I am too  (hence this blogpost!). After…

Monday I was told I was good. I felt relieved. Thursday I was ignored. I felt invisible. Wednesday I was snapped at. I began to doubt myself. On Thursday I was rejected. Now I was afraid. On Saturday I was thanked for being me. My soul relaxed. On Sunday I was left alone till the…

It has been over seven years since the first contours of my book started to emerge. And it took all this time to come to the realization that, yes, I am the person to tell this story. I don’t have to become more of an expert or more scared or more healed to tell about…

My first book will be released this week. A very personal and honest memoir about how my burn-out has radically changed me and my perspective on life itself. Or maybe just brought me home to who I was all along. With so many (young) people facing anxiety, crisis and burn-out now days, this is a…

“To remember what it is to be me, that is always the point.” These our the last words in the documentary (now on Netflix) on one of my literary icons Joan Didion. The center will not hold Didion mostly writes about herself, or directs bigger, universal stories back to herself. But it never seems to really be…