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I’ve been really ill this last month and I had a moments I was in so much pain I could feel death enter my aura. One of those moments was on the highway, with a car full of kids. I pulled over, got out of the car onto the grass,someone called an ambulance and the…

delivering parcels

We keep a candle lit on our kitchen table every morning. It’s burning for the two children who didn’t come into our physical family, to tell their souls they’re a part of us and not forgotten. And to remember ourselves that we are part of a lot more than we can see. And a lot…

letters to my husband and his lover

A couple of years ago, when we still lived in France and my husband was in Holland for long stretches of time, he fell in love with someone else and had an affair. I felt devastated and deeply ashamed. I blamed him for ruining our perfect marriage, because –of course- this was entirely his fault….

moeder aarde apotheek

And the time has come to open up my Moeder Aarde Apotheek (Mother Earth Apothecary) online. So many of us are in need of help on all levels to work through these challenging times I will offer a limited selection of medicine here for anyone who needs it. All medicines are made in our healing…

soul medicine

So these are the times? In my new book I write about wolf medicine: changing the us-them mentality into unity. People who know me know I make non-commercial soul medicine out of plant remedies for people who seek healing. This week I make a corona soul medicine for anyone who feels they need it. It…

homesick

It is a strange feeling to be at home and feel homesick at the same time. At first I did not recognize it as homesickness and labeled it as grief, as sadness, maybe a climate depression, rage over the rapid demolition of our natural world. Then I realized I’m grieving deeply over the loss of…

gardener/ guardian

Every time I try to take a picture of my garden, my telephone dies. When we bought this house with its big, beautiful garden my hands were itching to plant herbs, fruit trees, rearrange, be a gardener. But somehow that attitude wasn’t appreciated. I did not know where to began, all the plants grew like…

bye mary

Wherever I am, the world comes after me. It offers me its busyness. It does not believe that I do not want it. Now I understand why the old poets of China went so far and high into the mountains, then crept into the pale mist.” — Mary Oliver  (1935-2019) Rest in peace dear Mary….

to work

After a very long and wonderful maternity leave I’m happy to announce I’m open for reading and healing sessions from January 15th on. Distant readings and healing 150 euros Personal ceremony at our home in Klimmen (Zuid-Limburg) 300 euros (medicinal herbs from our garden included) Both include a detailed insight in blockages, ancestor lines and…

to manifest

Little Mozes is two months now and he starts to open his gummy hands and carefully touch what is around him. His own face, my arms, his clothes. He carefully smiles and starts to make small sounds. He is opening up to the world slowly. And with him I am too  (hence this blogpost!). After…

off the wheel

Monday I was told I was good. I felt relieved. Thursday I was ignored. I felt invisible. Wednesday I was snapped at. I began to doubt myself. On Thursday I was rejected. Now I was afraid. On Saturday I was thanked for being me. My soul relaxed. On Sunday I was left alone till the…

no media

It has been over seven years since the first contours of my book started to emerge. And it took all this time to come to the realization that, yes, I am the person to tell this story. I don’t have to become more of an expert or more scared or more healed to tell about…